Subema on Nostr: Having to remind myself about budget grates. Like I know I could do other things, but ...

Having to remind myself about budget grates. Like I know I could do other things, but it would mean commuting, which is bad for the family and the rest of the team. I know we could do a lot of other things but it would mean leaving folks behind, and based on how much that hurt last time, when it was only one person, this would be a magnitude or two worse. And I know I am not in a bad position, being able to afford a house, private school for both kids etc. Still, oscillating between how other equally capable folks are able to earn much more due to being located elsewhere, or how I should be able to better leverage my freedom as an entrepreneur, yet still coming short on both accounts, wears me down. Is this ADHD, adulthood with imposter syndrome, or do I just suck?