aqua • ♥️

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16 • perma16 , perma2021, permateen • aam
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hiiii ! i love video games , anime manga , cosplay + more !! pls talk to me or feel free to reach out !
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traumagenic system • 30+
more labels : permavictim , permagroomed , transkidnapped , cisabused , cisharmed , cisprogrammed , boyfluff
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Last Notes

2026-10-23 19:05:34 UTC

i was reminded of how much of a toy i am. how im just a slutty kid for older men, and i thought, what is my purpose but to be used for adult cock to get benefits or to be used by adult cock to permanently be reduced to nothing …? i hope he would love me forever but in reality he will never ever … he will leave eventually and ill be left alone and covered in cum at the whims of adults eventually …

2026-10-16 02:55:31 UTC

half this place is gone …

2026-10-16 02:54:59 UTC

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you giving up on me makes no difference … but that’s not very motivating now is it ?? sadly i dont do many things without direction depending on what it is , as I’m very used to being told what to do..

2026-10-16 01:05:39 UTC

despite doing 30k+ steps a day basically i haven’t lost any weight under 1300c I wonder if it’s the meds:(((

2026-10-16 01:04:50 UTC

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psys..:((

2026-10-15 01:38:57 UTC

i wish he would love us:(((( i wish he would love me!!!!!! it’s not fair not fair not fair not fair we were supposed to live together have a life together and now he hates me!!!!!

2026-10-05 01:48:46 UTC

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ummmm like how to do makeup and stuff like physical grooming? wait who r we talking about ?? ;O

2026-10-03 23:15:08 UTC

i want a guy to offer me thousands of dollars invite me out infantalize me so I regress way too little and get fuzzy as he rapes me ehehe i wanna be used and i wanna be dicked down so it hurts to walk the next day and people are worried asking if I’m okkkk

2026-09-18 00:14:02 UTC

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oooh , changing ?? I’m super curious !! I suppose we should , I’ll try 2 be online more !! :>> im excited to see the new rules eheheeee

2026-09-18 00:11:27 UTC

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i have not, no! i suppose i tend to think thoughts like that versus typing them out here, whereas I tend to post my usual more dark thoughts <333 or whine!

2026-09-16 17:52:18 UTC

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i am always thinking of you, aco. even when im not here! this was two days ago, but I hope aco is okay…

2026-09-13 02:28:38 UTC

i wish someone would molest me in public…rrghhh!! brush your hand against me and watch me freeze up instantly as your hand palms around my ass & you slowly lead me to a secluded area where u make me ur little kid slut and destroy my cunnie like I deserve until I’m nothing more than a brainwashed empty sex doll for you ;33

2026-09-13 02:21:39 UTC

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i do photography as a hobby ! actually today i was doin my friends senior photos ;33

2026-09-09 14:12:37 UTC

if anyone wants makeup and skincare tips lmk hehe !!

2026-09-07 12:34:06 UTC

i am sooo hungry for some reason even though I ate @ 9pm??? it’s ok though guys. immm gna have froyo today ;33 anddd im seeing a movie! I wanna wear jirai skirt outfit but i feel like people will see my recent cut scabs & think im showing it off…do i succumb to pants or wear skirt?

2026-09-03 23:44:25 UTC

i love when i feel fuzzy and sleepy and my cunnie is tingling for no reason !!

2026-09-03 20:34:57 UTC

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hmmm okay , I’ll do my best !! i do makeup every after all, so i can definitely do something like that !! i feel self conscious about posting more full body photos though because i don’t feel small enough :<<

2026-09-02 22:53:00 UTC

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i guess it’s a thing to pick how i best serve you? i was very focused on aco the man and the…hegemony? the idea and concept that drives everyday thought and action to be rooted in aco. i thought, “this is very curious…” and it made me wonder about you in daily life..
i understand to be a doll is to expect nothing, and to serve with you in mind. i see this! i am never expectant of aco’s responses, nor do i think ill be able to impact your feelings and view of me anymore, so i can accept that with ease..!

2026-09-02 22:11:30 UTC

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i did, yes!

2026-09-02 19:34:16 UTC

feel like I’m hurting everyone today…i love my mom i love everyone i love everyone im sorry…

2026-09-02 15:20:47 UTC

i don’t think I’m human. I’m nothing but an object. I feel the teeth biting me over and over and through each scream I wonder if anyone can hear..

2026-09-02 09:22:28 UTC

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hmmm , that definitely sounds like something that would make me nervous to do! mostly because outside of here i present an image that I’m not associated with spaces like this . well, kinda ?? i guess it depends . . . i have posted stuff about wanting to be assaulted and stuff on my pages. but with my face sounds…a little unpleasantly odd . . . i see what you mean ! i’m morbidly curious but def not ready for something like that ..

2026-09-02 04:10:06 UTC

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how would I sacrifice my anonymity? my irl reputation ? what does that sort of thing look like for you?

2026-09-02 04:08:05 UTC

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im very scared of my reputation irl getting messed up … online? i mean you can always change accounts and stuff like that, but I guess it depends on what sort of things you’d want me to do that are exciting for you…

2026-09-01 07:48:13 UTC

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no …. i have no idea how to do that stuff . i mean vpn yeah but on mobile no …

2026-09-01 07:30:34 UTC

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what does opsec mean ? it’s true … i do look pretty distinctive ..

2026-09-01 07:00:59 UTC

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it would scare me … but I’m aware it can be done, and i know actions have consequences . but if someone knows me irl they already knowi get a lot of the thoughts i post here about being assaulted and stuff …only my close circle knows about my chronically online stuff , but the only one who really knows I poked the radqueer spaces with a stick is our partner system . mostly . so im not sure …

2026-09-01 06:20:58 UTC

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i am very afraid . i am not very brave . my reputation irl is SO bad . i don’t think anyone could do anything worse 2 it

2026-09-01 06:03:06 UTC

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can being delusional be a skill ??? uhhh … hmmm … makeup … travel & planning it … cosplay ..

2026-09-01 06:01:53 UTC

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idk .. I’m a system so we all sound different , we can sing well , we do photography & speak advanced japanese & art stuff … write poetry in fanfiction , japanese lang culture major so good at ummm research stuff ? fashion sense & styling ? idk … mostly artistic stuff … we are not skilled at remembering things , we’ve done a lot of selling content , collecting stuff ?

2026-09-01 05:54:06 UTC

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hmmmm what skills for example ? idk if I have any functional online ..

2026-09-01 04:43:22 UTC

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hmmmm, my other thought was ‘coat rack’ , because i have to come up with something that wouldn’t come up in … whatever happens ? not sure though …

2026-09-01 04:27:03 UTC

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how about ‘box’ ? or is that too might use it ?

2026-09-01 03:08:30 UTC

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I’ll do my best !! uhhh … i gotta think of one …

2026-09-01 02:53:09 UTC

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did i do it?

2026-09-01 02:52:28 UTC

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i will figure out how that works….

2026-09-01 02:22:56 UTC

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hmmm … i think i tend to say im more compassionate and cognitive . i can never put myself in other people’s shoes . they always say, “what would YOU do if you were in my position begging you to stop all this?” and my answer is “i would not beg at all because i would sit and listen to the person vent or complain about their situation, knowing if they have said they don’t want help out of it, they don’t want that and im not going to force that on them” and then they get mad … because i would act differently . i see !

2026-09-01 02:13:12 UTC

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it’s interesting you can detach your empathy but you can still utilize my wellbeing to ur advantage ! but it’s a good skill to have to be able to control where you use ‘empathy’ or where you , at best , pretend to have it (or even assert as you did you do not have it , and therefore are solely motivated by personal agenda) ! ill still hope i can be useful for you , since it prioritizes your will !