What I this reminds me of is a quote from the movie Cloud Atlas:
A journalist talks to a source of a big and dangerous info leak, who is wondering what to do. She says "You have to do what you can't not do"
Are you able to give up on what you are doing and live with that choice? I know I can't get an iPhone and the latest surveillance electric vehicle and enjoy the comfortable moment. I'd rather live in the woods.
